I was mad at my body...

Is that all I am? A number on the scale.

I’m working on my next book, a memoir- Staring Down a Dream: A mom, a marathon, a mission. I’m realizing how much food and body image impacted my story. I will share some of it—I think it is important.

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I was grateful to have a coach challenge my mindset and ask really good questions when it came to body image and food rules.

I’m grateful for all she taught me. I’m grateful I’ve let the number on the scale go.

Let me ask you—

Do you feel strong, resilient, and healthy? Do you have good energy for your workouts?

The poem today is inspired by Marni Sumbal,MS, RD, CSSD, LD/N owner of Trimarni Coaching and Nutrition.

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I ignored my body 
for a number.
A number on the scale
Is that all I am? 
If I just reach that number
Life will change
I will be happy 
I will be loved 
I will be a faster runner
Yet—
The number never came
The scale cold under my feet 
Head down shoulders slouched 
in defeat.
I got mad at my body.
Consumed by food
preoccupied with
body image. 
Fast runners are thin and lean
that’s what they all said. 
I heard I was neither—
Is this all I am?  
Fat, muscle, 
skin, bones.

No—
Focus on how you feel.
What your body can do 
instead of what it looks like. 
She spoke to me
over the phone—
Get to know your body.
Do you feel strong, resilient, and healthy?
What? 
A number consumed my mind
that would never allow 
me to answer this question. 
Would I consider it? 
Let the number go,
throw away the scale.
Get to know my body
as a beloved friend—
Yes 
And it’s made all the difference.  

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